I am very rarely nervous: i spend a good chunk of my time in conversations. Sharing, exploring, developing ideas. Some of this work is well understood, some much newer. The work on Black Swans is experimental, is incomplete, is a new space. My language is not complete, my thinking is not fully coherent. I do not have the full narrative.
And so i am nervous: nervous that i will trip, that i will stumble, that i will be proved an idiot as i fail to convey those ideas which are floating in my head. It’s not the fault of the rehearsal that i’m nervous: that simply made me realise that my story was stilted, and for someone who lives by stories, that’s a terrible thing.
So i’m doing what i can do, in the context of the Social Age: much as i #WorkedOutLoud when I wrote the paper, i am now #NervousOutLoud as i prepare to present it. To work out loud is to share your weakness as well as your strength. Your thinking as well as the final story.