Just a brief follow up to yesterdays piece: so the presentation went very well. I found the narrative. As ever, i’m reminded that learning is a process of discomfort, disturbance, and making things safe again. Climbing the ladder, one rung at a time. Then discovering that there is another ladder beyond this one. We may never achieve enlightenment, but as long as we are willing to keep taking the steps, we will at least get to enjoy the view.
You may have noticed that this weeks posts have been short: i’ve been very focussed on this session, feeling little energy to do much beyond that. But i’ve tried to keep writing to #WorkOutLoud through the good and the tough. Sometimes i can write 1,500 words for the blog, illustrate it, and find some new thinking, whilst other days, it’s just a reflective space. I think the key to writing is to just write.
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I’m highly nervous: tomorrow morning i present the work on Black Swans and the Limits of Hierarchy. And i made the mistake of rehearsing it.
I am very rarely nervous: i spend a good chunk of my time in conversations. Sharing, exploring, developing ideas. Some of this work is well understood, some much newer. The work on Black Swans is experimental, is incomplete, is a new space. My language is not complete, my thinking is not fully coherent. I do not have the full narrative.
And so i am nervous: nervous that i will trip, that i will stumble, that i will be proved an idiot as i fail to convey those ideas which are floating in my head. It’s not the fault of the rehearsal that i’m nervous: that simply made me realise that my story was stilted, and for someone who lives by stories, that’s a terrible thing.
So i’m doing what i can do, in the context of the Social Age: much as i #WorkedOutLoud when I wrote the paper, i am now #NervousOutLoud as i prepare to present it. To work out loud is to share your weakness as well as your strength. Your thinking as well as the final story.
I just finished delivering the new work around “Future Technology: Innovation and Impact”. This work involves thinking at a high level about the multitudinous aspects of organisational learning and performance that it will impact. That’s another way of saying that this is not yet applied. It’s a dangerous space. This thinking is not a presentation of final ideas, but rather sharing as I evolve what i actually believe to be true.
For me, navigating these dangerous spaces, confronting our uncertainty, sometimes in very public ways, is part of learning. If we stick to the things that we know are true, we will never find new levels of truth.